Love is Here Now

Posted by Jaclyn Beckerman on February 19, 2010

The soul doesn’t talk in language, it talks in feeling; in intuition, pulling or knowing towards something.

How often are we in conflict about things because what our head says isn’t what our heart wants?  The answers to your purpose and the path you’re meant to take in this life don’t reside in fear, judgment, or self-loathing.  They lie in going within, to that deep part within you that knows your higher truth and the vast array of abundance that is completely available to you.

Not everyone is willing to take this path though.  Lets be honest, it’s not the ‘easy’ path to take.  It’s so much easier to remain stagnant and stew in the comfort of our incompletions and dissatisfaction than it is to actually break free of those patterns and be responsible for how our life occurs for us.

Personally I stewed for SO long.  For most of my life in fact.  It’s definitely coaching, transformational and spiritual work that has pulled me out of my shitty little box of what was possible for me.  Actually, I always saw the bigger picture and the the possibility of life, I think I just didn’t really believe true happiness and fulfillment was possible for me in my heart.  I knew it was possible for everyone else but some core part of me didn’t believe that I deserved it too.

It’s mind-boggling for me to realize how far I’ve come from that place.  I may have understood intellectually before but didn’t truly get in my heart that love truly is all around you and within.  You don’t need something outside of yourself to tell you you’re worthwhile and lovable.  You, without even trying, just are.  Just like I am.  There are treasures and wisdom and riches within.  Yet I kept looking for things outside of me to justify my worth.  (Look for yourself here too – where are you doing that?)  The ironic thing is that if you know me, you’ve probably always known that I’m valuable and lovable, while not truly believing it about yourself.  Or at least having some form of ‘I’m not good enough’ persistently hanging out in your head.

Funny how we all think we’re so different, but we’re actually not.  We all have fears and insecurities.  We all go through breakdowns and think that ours are so unique… and no one has it as bad as we do… and it’s not fair… and why can’t we just be like everyone else who has it together?!

The big joke is that no one has it all together.  We’re all working out or own stuff and in the process of generating our lives.  We may be at different stages in the process or dealing with different kinds of problems.  (Case and point, Mother Theresa had way bigger problems than I do and was certainly more evolved on her journey of compassion, tender-heartedness and contribution – but I’d put money on that she still dealt with her own fears and ‘problems’ just like everyone else has to. Same with the Ghandi, the Dalai Lama, etc.   We’re human.)

All I’m saying is that when you see, own, and access all the love around and within you, you stop searching for it externally and start owning that you are responsible for and fully capable of creating the life you want.  Rev. Gold said “Once you’ve connected to the inner kingdom, the place from which stuff comes, you now have access to it.  You no longer have to worry about what channel to get it from next.”

So what I’ve taken is is to stop worrying – it’s ALL within.  And wow, are things just happening in my life.  I invite you to do it with me.

19Feb

What are you bringing into your life?

Posted by Jaclyn Beckerman on February 17, 2010

I’m feeling the need to share that I don’t like talking about my business in my posts.  There’s something about looking good and avoiding looking bad that consistently keeps me from writing about wins (or breakdowns) or lessons I learn in my business.

I’ve taken my willingness to be vulnerable with people to a whole different level just by starting this blog yet it’s clear to me that I’m not sharing things that would definitely be of value to folks in order to save face or avoid being judged.  It’s funny because I imagine it’s easy for people to judge lots of the things I talk about in my posts anyway yet for some reason when it comes to my business, I get far more confronted than by other topics.

I think we all do this.  We don’t share authentically with everyone what’s really going on in certain areas of our lives because we judge that they should be going or certain way or shouldn’t be going however they are.

Something fabulous that one of my clients said today was that in looking at how things were in the past (actually just a few months ago), she saw that they had to go the way they did and she had to go through what she did in order to get where she is now.  And because of that, she could see that the process was perfect.  Because today she feels empowered and liberated from some limiting beliefs that had a stronghold on her for most of her life.  But couldn’t have gotten here without going through the muck.  By the same logic, you can’t get where you want to go without going through whatever is in the way and breaking it down.  So naturally then, where you are too is perfect.  And there’s simply still work to be done to get the results you want.

So the thing I want to share about my business today is that I’ve had a breakthrough in it recently.  I shared in my post, Give It All Away, that I finally understood that I wasn’t getting what I wanted in life because I wasn’t giving it to the universe.  I said I wanted to be a contribution and to have a thriving coaching practice but I certainly wasn’t consistently having new clients sign up.  What I see is that I was actually being really stingy with both myself and others – more interested in what I could gain for myself than what I could give away to others and life.

What I didn’t share about my experience that day at Sacred Center was that this understanding that I needed to give to the universe what I was looking to have myself really moved to give more than my usual $2 or $3 donation when they passed the baskets around.  Instead, I filled out a credit card slip and donated $20.  This may or may not seem like a huge deal to you but for me it was an act of giving away the thing I’d been struggling to bring in to myself to something I love – without the story of ‘I can’t afford to do this’ or ‘I need to save money’ or ‘This is irresponsible’ attached to it.  I was contributing to something I saw as wonderful in the world instead of looking to be contributed to.  And it felt great.  Her message (I recommend reading the post if you haven’t already) had really shifted my perception of who I was being in the world.

The magic, the reason this is so significant to share, is that the very next day, I had a new client hire me.  While I know I’m a great coach and provide a lot of value for people, actually bringing in new business had definitely not been my strong suit in the past.  So just believe me when I say that this blatant manifestation of the law of attraction was pretty phenomenal.

I have been living and being from this place ever since.  Very aware of my intentions and solely out to contribute to people whether they are friends, prospects, clients, colleagues or family.

This past Sunday at Sacred Center, when they passed the donation baskets around, I at first gave $3, then I decided that was too stingy and was compelled to give more and added another $5.  I also did a workshop which I knew I wanted to participate in and was another $10.  I only had one sample session set up for this week, my first since that last one.  Now THIS prospect, who is wonderful and my ideal client, hired me as well.

More and more I’m feeling confident and certain that my practice is going to thrive and I will be able to serve myself by serving others!  My dream is to support as many people as possible in transforming their lives to be the life of their dreams! (In the future that will also include books and inspirational speaking!) And I must say, living (and loving) from this place and creating this life is SO exciting and rewarding!

What do you see would be possible for YOU if you started living from a space of contributing rather than ‘getting your needs met’ or ‘what’s in it for you’?  (And lets be honest, ‘what’s in it for you’ tends to dominate most folks way of being whether they intend it to or not.)

17Feb

Do you love yourself?

Posted by jaclynbeckerman on February 11, 2010

I feel like many (most?) people don’t.  In fact, many people seem to actually hate themselves.  Which sounds really sad (and it is) but seems so frequently to be true.

I used to be one of those people. Who didn’t love myself and didn’t think I was lovable.  Now, until getting involved with transformational work, I didn’t actually realize I felt this way.  It was a core belief I had hidden away far below the surface, where I didn’t have to see it or do anything about it. I might have even denied it if I’d been asked and I certainly did my best to overcompensate for the belief by being confident and outgoing.

In fact, there are plenty (perhaps even the majority) of people who even when they do face the fact that they believe this (or something like it, ie: worthless, useless, etc), don’t want to do anything about it because they’re so terrified of change and the unknown that they’d rather have things stay the same, safe and comfortable albeit resigned and unsatisfying.

From that place, you’re always living a life of not being enough.  So naturally, nothing ever will be enough.  From there, you can only see what’s lacking and trying to fix what’s wrong.

When in reality, there’s nothing wrong with you at all and certainly nothing to fix.  You are complete and whole just as you are.  There may be some stuff (mainly beliefs) in the way of you living the life you want to live.  But it’s transforming those beliefs and your relationship to yourself, not ‘fixing’ them, that makes the difference.

This has been a long journey for me to come to this place where I DO love myself and am happy with who I am.  I may not have it all figured out yet, and there are of course still fears that come up within me, but inherently I believe that I am a loving contribution to the world and the world is lucky to have me.

A delightful result of this is that I’m actually being a very different person and attracting wonderful things into my life like new men, friends, clients, and venues that support my continual growth and contribute to me living a phenomenal life of my choosing.

A friend asked me how I possibly had so many men asking me out and said I needed to give lessons.  I told her she needs to learn to love herself first and the rest will follow.  I really believe that it’s only because I’ve finally accepted myself with compassion and love that I’m attracting so many great things into my life.  I’m sure you’ve heard the old adage that says, ‘you can’t love someone until you learn to love yourself’.  Well I believe that’s true, and additionally that it will be much more difficult for someone else to love you if you can’t love yourself.  How can someone else possibly give you what you deny giving yourself?

So answer for yourself honestly, how much do you really love you?  Could it be more?  What could you take on to increase your experience of self-love?  Because whether you’re willing to admit it or not, I bet everyone could use more love in their lives – and it truly does start with you.  Feel free to share below. <3

11Feb

Do you speak to God?

Posted by jaclynbeckerman on February 10, 2010

I do.  And I always get an answer.

When I talk to God (or if you prefer – spirit, universe, higher power, whatever works for you) it’s usually either in writing or in my head (which makes me feel slightly crazy sometimes).  But whatever I ask is ALWAYS answered immediately.  Usually in my own voice – but there’s always an answer there and that answer is not based in my fears or insecurities.

I’ve worked persistently to develop my ability to access my intuition and listen to what it says.  And so long as the answer is based in love and a stand for my greatness, I know it comes directly from spirit.  So whether you see it as my intuition, higher self or God – I believe that voice is connected to the universe in ways I don’t have evidence for and can’t explain.  That’s part of why they call it faith, don’t you think?

There have been (and still are) many times where I’ve ignored my inner compass, which consistently gives me the answers I’m need (although not always the ones I want) and provides incredible guidance.  Often this is because my head wants one thing and my heart wants another.  Although, time and time again, my heart proves to be right whether I listen to it or not.

It’s interesting how adamant we can be about ignoring this inner knowing or understanding.  We seem to be more committed to that disempowering voice in our head that tells us we’re not good enough than we are to being our greatness.  Which, absurd as it may seem, makes perfect sense.  It’s safer and easier to hang out in our comfort zone wrapped up in our fears where we don’t have to change or do anything differently.  But the life you want, if you don’t already have it, doesn’t exist within what you already know.  So for those of us who are brave enough to face the unknown with love, change it is.

What does your intuition tell you?  How do you speak to God?

10Feb

Give it all away…

Posted by jaclynbeckerman on February 8, 2010

…and you’ll get it back 1000 fold.

Rev. Gold talked about the law of attraction in her message at Sunday’s service.

Phenomenal message.  She said anything you seek is seeking you.

We are constantly asking what can life do for me when what we should be asking is “What can I do for life?”  It blew my mind how similar this was to the breakthrough I had and wrote about in my blog post a couple weeks ago, Sharing My Heart.

We can’t have what we want until we generate it within ourselves and give it away.  EVERYTHING is already within you.  Put out a hand and ask for life to give to you and you will just end up with an empty hand.  You can only receive what you want when you give it away first.

I believe it’s the Koran that says ‘take one step towards me and I will take a thousand toward you’.  The smaller and stingier we give of ourselves the less we get in return.  When we move in the direction of our hearts and our own personal truth, and give to life, we then create space for that thing to exist within our lives.  When we hold a mentality of abundance, we are then attracting and open to receiving abundance.  When we are generous, the world is generous with us.

It seems so simple yet par for the course of humanity, we make even the most common sense concepts unendingly complicated.

The law of correspondence (or attraction) says that what you yourself are bringing to life, life, like a mirror, reflects that back to you.  Said more plainly, life will reflect back to you that which you have given to life.

The light bulb went on that I have definitely not been giving my best everywhere so of course I’m not getting it back in return.  How could I?!  You can only get what you put out there.

Talk about motivation.

8Feb

What's the point of meditation?

Posted by jaclynbeckerman on January 21, 2010

Peace, stillness, connecting with yourself, going within.  All some things that pop to mind for me.

I have to say Monday night I did not sleep well.  It easily took me a couple hours to fall asleep.  I used to have pretty bad insomnia growing up, which I’ve mostly overcome but it still hits me once in awhile.

So Tuesday I had a long day full of sample sessions, Accomplishment Coaching leader calls, clients and my own coach.  I was exhausted all day and definitely dragging along through parts of it.

THEN, I went to Siddha Yoga for dinner and an hour and a half of singing, reflecting, chanting and meditation – essentially raising my vibrational energy with lots of wonderful people.  Before the chanting and silent meditation started (they go one after another), the woman leading this evening asked us to reflect for a couple of minutes in silence on why we came here.  What came to mind for me was opening my heart to love and compassion and being with a community dedicated to the same, recognizing our inherent oneness or unity and raising my energy and spirits with them collectively.

Although at times I was a bit antsy, half nodding off from being so tired or ready to be done with it (my mind’s usual song and dance), it was still certainly rejuvenating and I was definitely glad I’d come back.

However, it wasn’t until I was having a conversation with a friend on the phone later that I really realized (and exclaimed) how much better I felt than prior to meditation!  In fact, I felt pretty great.

It just goes to show that taking time to be still and go within makes such a significant impact on our (at least my) well being.  No wonder people who meditate are so much calmer and more peaceful than everyone else.  It’s re-energizing!

This isn’t to say I’m consistent with doing a daily practice yet (far from it) but I certainly see the value and will start to integrate it more and more into my life.

It’s funny how taking 20, even 10 minutes a day to meditate can seem like an imposition or a hardship (you don’t have the time, right?) and yet we waste that time so incredibly quickly doing other things that don’t serve us nearly as well like watching TV (one of my personal favorites), mindlessly surfing the internet (sometimes done while watching TV – ADD at it’s best) or just getting caught up in drama – which lets be honest, everyone does at times.  I’m guessing it would be ideal to do longer than 10 or 20 minutes but I really think that even that (especially starting out) would make a huge difference in our days, especially if we started the day off with it.

So, I’m extremely curious, what’s your experience with meditating?  Do you do it?  For how long and how frequently?  Do you sit in silence, do visualization or something else?  What difference does it make for you?

21Jan

Karmic Healing.. you know you're curious.

Posted by jaclynbeckerman on January 17, 2010

I am just going to give a detailed account of what I felt or saw.  It reminded be of something like Reiki except without any physical touch.

First I talked to Yossi about why I was taking this on, essentially sharing the things I felt I needed to let go of.  Mainly this related to beliefs I felt were in the way of me building my business successfully and finding the right relationship.   The whole thing lasted 45 minutes.

Yossi started out by saying a little prayer and from the moment he started doing praying, my heart started beating faster and continued to do so at least until he came over to the table. (Which was essentially a massage table).  Once he came over he told me to try to still my mind, go into my heart and just be.

Then, I actually felt the energy moving in my body!  In the beginning I felt it moving up from my stomach to my chest to my head and finally I felt a light-medium pulling sensation out through my crown chakra (top of the head).  As best I can describe it, the feeling was that of a compressed ball of pressure and tingling feeling which sort of lingered in each area for a bit and then progressed upwards.  This reoccurred a few times going from my chest up to and out through my head.  Later on I also felt energy just lifting/pulling out of me from my stomach & chest upwards (somewhere through the 2nd-4th Chakras I suppose). I could feel my chest getting so full of energy that it would lift slightly up from the table along with a slight tilt back of my head without my effort.  There was at one point an undeniable tilting of my head to the left and then down a bit – it felt like I was being pulled by the energy to do so. More than once I felt energy enveloping my entire body.

Right above my lower right hip I felt a small pang of pain and immediately after I briefly felt medium-heavy pressure just on my right eye.  There was one more spot that I don’t recall.  Yossi told me after that when you feel slight, brief pain like a pinch or pang or pressure in a localized spot it’s energy knots that are being released.

I could feel energy (like a small ball or area of it, strong tingles or pressure) in some different parts of my body at different times, including my hands, feet and knee.

In my minds eye I could see 2 spirit bodies standing over me, perhaps 3 at one point – sort of a bluish color – they were more masses of energy than distinct features.  Though at one point I believe I saw a flash of a detailed profiled face but it was too quick to describe it. Yossi said that he had called the Angels and Ascended Masters to come heal me so it made sense I would see them there.

I frequently had thoughts popping up after a few moments of stillness but one time in the stillness I felt a strong sense of love & compassion come over me.

Now, I’m going to precursor this with that I’m hesitant to share this part but I’m going to anyway.  Early on, just for a minute, I had a flash of imagery of myself as an Indian princess and saw my parents (not the same ones as now) in front of me. I think this may have been a past life. I got the sense there may have been some violence against me in this life at some point.  This was especially interesting to me because when I went to Siddha Yoga on Tuesday I had a very similar image of myself pop into my head during our chanting.

I recall getting worried that the beliefs would come back and I got the response of ‘permanent’.  (The skeptic in me wants to refute, ‘how could it be permanent?’ But that’s what I got.)

Seeing as I’m not seasoned at shutting off my mind as a meditation practice, there were definitely other thoughts that popped up.  I don’t know whether they were of my conscious mind or subconscious mind – nor can I think of other specific ones to share.

But I certainly enjoyed the experience and I definitely felt lighter, freer and more at ease after the process was complete.

I also made a wonderful new friend.  Yossi has been practicing Siddha Yoga for 16 years.  He does spiritual counseling in addition to energy work.  He is incredibly wise, warm, and well versed in higher consciousness work which you all know I love.  He’s so generous in sharing his own spiritual journey with others and is a delight to spend time with.

Different people have different experiences but if you’re interested in trying it out it’s very affordable and I’d be happy to provide Yossi’s information.  Let me know!

17Jan

Siddha Yoga Meditation Center: An Experience

Posted by jaclynbeckerman on January 13, 2010

So, I went to the Siddha Yoga center last night as I mentioned in my previous post.

It was interesting.  I really enjoyed the experience. It’s free to attend for those of you who are wondering.

I got there 15 minutes early in order to attend an introduction. Went to take my shoes and coat off in the coat room and then proceeded directly to the little dining room. Clearly did not find said introduction and ate yummy food instead. Far from surprising. I tend to want to eat all the time.

I wasn’t actually aware they served (sold – but it’s very inexpensive) food so I’d eaten already. But regardless, before the chant and mediation I had a baked apple (soo good) and chai tea.

Ask my parents or any of my exes, the way to my heart is definitely through food. I’m such a guy.

Anyhow, on to the main event. The whole thing lasted about an hour and a half (7p-8:30p). I’m not sure how long each part lasted but first everyone sang a song (prayer?) together in sandskrit (this I had trouble following, even with the printout to follow along). One woman (leading the evening) spoke for a bit and they shared a video clip of the guru, Gurumayi, giving a message about being at peace in your mind; noticing when you have stillness and calm in your mind and recreating that experience throughout your day. She speaks of how having peace in your mind is how you have peace with God.  This is what creates bliss.

Then we chanted: ‘Om Namah Shivaya’ which translates to “I honor the divinity (or Shiva) that resides within me”. It was really singing rather than chanting. The chorus (for lack of a better description) would sing it four times and then everyone else would repeat. In just the very beginning I admit I felt a little silly but that quickly faded as I realized no one here was judging me, they were joining with me. So I let myself envelope into it. There were definitely a few times the thought popped into my head, “Really? how LONG is this going to last?”. But most of the time I found it really enjoyable. It was easy to get uplifted and carried away by the beautiful singing and joint expression of unity. At one point I could actually envision not just that I was honoring myself as divine, but that everyone else chanting was honoring me as divine, and I them. I won’t say this feeling lasted too long for me but it was just such a powerful recognition of connection that the feeling still resonates with me. Other things went through my head as well here and there but can’t remember them specifically enough to share them.

After the chanting completed we went into silent mediation for awhile. Again, no real gauge on the length here. My best guess would be 30 minutes. They tell you to focus either on your breath or you can continue repeating the mantra in your head. Another chant I learned from Eat Pray Love is ham-sa (‘ham’ on the breath in, ‘sa’ on the breath out) which translates to “I am that”. A tribute to my overactive attention span I switched on and off between all three options – the two mantras and watching my breath – mostly watching my breath I suppose. Naturally my thoughts wondered at times – mostly to random thoughts about upcoming or past situations as most minds do – avoiding both the present moment and silencing that inner voice which of course is what meditation is all about. I don’t think I did too poorly though for my first time there (not that you can meditate badly I suppose). When this completed (via gong) we ended the evening.

I proceeded to head back to the little dining room (it’s really a sickness). I got some food to bring home with me because it looked too good not to (of course I caved in and tasted it – delicious) and decaf coffee. I sat down to chat with people which was a delight. Everyone was wonderful and I love the community within the center.

One of the folks I met was an older Israeli man who is a healer. It’s a bit challenging for him to describe what he does as he finds himself shocked and mystified by the results people report to him. He says he’s a conduit for healing people’s karmic energy. Of course I’m captivated by this (having just read about past life regressions and how healing karmic energy can have you break through where you keep consistently getting stuck in life in ‘Many Lives, Many Masters’ by Brian L Weiss). His story of how he came to this path was so engaging. Perhaps I’ll share it another day. Anyway, I’m going to get a healing from him on Saturday so I’ll let you know how it goes. :) (Excited!) I am definitely beyond interested in finding out what a karmic healing will do for me. Can’t wait to see!

13Jan

Eat Pray Love

Posted by jaclynbeckerman on January 12, 2010

I just finished Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert the other day. It makes me want to go to an Ashram! (Ideally in India – I’ve got a serious travel bug). I tend to be very curious about things and easily enrolled (within reason) into anything spiritual or transformational. Though I’m not going to lie, I’m not completely convinced that I would be able to handle it. It seems pretty intense. However, I’ve certainly done some very rigorous self-development work already so perhaps I’m underestimating myself.

In case you haven’t read the book or don’t know what an Ashram is, I pulled this from Wikipedia: ‘Traditionally, an ashram is a religious hermitage. Additionally, today the term ashram often denotes a locus of Indian cultural activity such as yoga, music study or religious instruction, the moral equivalent of a studio or dojo.’ From what I gather the intention is to have a spiritual experience of connecting with God. I’m intrigued.

Elizabeth Gilbert speaks of having actual experiences of God and the unconditional compassionate love that exists within that state. Fascinating. There’s certainly a part of me that is VERY curious and begs to have that kind of experience myself. If you haven’t garnered this yet, I’m fond of Eastern philosophies. No, I have not studied them in depth, but from what I know of them, I like them. That’s enough for me to want to explore.

She mainly seems to do a lot of mediation. My own meditations are very different than those Liz Gilbert speaks of and I haven’t anywhere near achieved the blissful state that she and many other spiritual writings speak of in their quests to spiritual enlightenment. So hey, I want in the club too.

I can experience stillness more easily than ever before in my lifetime. I could hardly meditate at all before (and had little sense of how to anyway). Let me tell you, meditating absolutely makes a huge difference – instilling a sense of peace and wholeness that I hadn’t before known possible. Since November I’ve been taking Intuitive Tool classes where you learn a lot of wonderful meditation techniques via visualization and build the skill of accessing your intuition. They’re amazing and led by Deganit Nuur (deganitnuur.com). In addition to the classes she offers she also does incredible intuitive readings.

It’s funny because I didn’t even know how starved I was for a spiritual connection until Accomplishment Coaching introduced me to guided meditation and some incredible books like Conversations with God and A Return to Love. Those certainly rocked my world.

That’s actually what led me to seek out Sacred Center in the first place. It’s so great what comes into your life when you create the space for it.

Anyway, I’ve found the Guru Gilbert speaks of in her book, Gurumayi Chidvilasananda who studied under Swami Muktananda (http://www.siddhayoga.org/guru/index.aspx). I’m planning to go to their Tuesday evening mediation tonight and check it out. Will let you know how it goes…

12Jan

Sacred Center: Today's Message

Posted by jaclynbeckerman on January 10, 2010

I thought the previous post describing Sacred Center was getting too long so decided to break off my experience of today into a new post.

In part of today’s message Rev. Gold read a bit from David Whyte’s poem, Sweet Darkness, that I found so beautiful and worth sharing.

You must learn one thing.

The world was made to be free in.

Give up all the other worlds

except the one to which you belong.

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet

confinement of your aloneness

to learn that

anything or anyone

that does not bring you alive

you have made too small for you.

I’m going to focus on the last part of this: “Anyone or anything that doesn’t make you come ALIVE, you’ve made too small for you.” Wow. Talk about inspiring.

Now, at first I though she said ‘IS too small for you’, which is different. I’ve always been one to abandon things that don’t (or no longer) make me feel alive and happy. (And since I love ‘getting things right’, I thought: insert victory dance here). There’s obvious potential danger in that of course because with my self diagnosis of chronic ennui, I’ve got a knack for being pretty masterful at avoiding making commitments. So this partly plays into my automatic way of being (which is nothing to throw a party for). As a side note, I’ve made a ton of progress in this area by making bold commitments in the face of my resistance (ie. leading a coach training program, stepping up as a group leader in my Landmark forum seminar…). AND when I DO make a commitment, I’m always 100% all in. Which is why I like to avoid them so stealthily.

Now, looking at that if something or someone doesn’t make me come alive, I’VE MADE them too small for me. That’s interesting. There are many ways to look at that. It could be that I keep choosing people that don’t treat me right or situations that don’t make me come alive – that I’m constantly settling for less than I could have or manifest (probably because some part of me still doesn’t truly believe I deserve the pot of gold). This certainly feels familiar (albeit a bit uncomfortable) and I can see that I do that often enough – especially with people. It could refer to where I squander the possibility of realizing what I’m capable of and who I’m capable of being by making myself smaller to fit in someone else’s box. It could also mean that in my mind I’m making a situation or person smaller than it really is. I’m only seeing one narrow, small perspective or view of them/it that doesn’t show me the jewel or gift available to me which would help me grow and live a bigger life.

What do you see for yourself?

Rev. Gold spoke of recognizing the breakthrough available in every breakdown. (Talk about a coaching concept..) That we need to raise our consciousness above the ‘problems’ that we’re trying to deal with or fix because from that place nothing new will come. Fixing a problem always eventually leads to another problem that needs to be fixed because nothing new ever occurs – and you could spend your entire life fixing problems. You cannot solve problems at the same level of consciousness at which they were created (Einstein). You have to raise your level of consciousness and see the bigger picture, look through your heart (instead of your head) and find the gold the universe is trying to provide you with. She said prayers are always answered when we realize our part in them, because they are answered through us. Not outside of us. We are the doorway (‘between heaven and earth’). So we have to open our eyes and see what’s in front of us otherwise we miss the gifts life has to offer, that are often staring us in the face.

All very thought-provoking. Very inspiring.

After just returning from a 2 week vacation, I’d say this was a great way to start the week…

Happy Sunday,

Jaclyn

10Jan